Personal Log, Noemi Laporte

There are two halves of me, running in parallel. 

On the one hand:

I understand why Elder Svetlana Henriksson decided to commit high treason.

The Elders have always acted to guarantee the long-term survival and prosperity of humanity. They saved the Sol system from total systemic collapse after the Isolation. Reluctantly, they hurled the might of the Federation into war with the Alliance, because...well, because SOMETHING. They know something I don't. Ken told me if the Federation dies, humanity does. Did the Elders know that? Is that why they decided to fight?

Henriksson decided the GTVA was going to win the war, so she acted to cut the war short, so humanity could unite and begin rebuilding. She betrayed the rendezvous with the Vasudans and gave her colleague Taudigani to Steele. She was close to Admiral Netreba; she probably helped set up the Carthage trap. 

You see? It was all for the greater good.

Fifty thousand Wargods and one of her friends in exchange for the unification of humanity and the end of this war. It's the same choice I made, just days ago, when my wing shot down innocent Federation pilots. They had to die for the greater good.

Svetlana Henriksson and I are one and the same.

On the other hand.

Karen. Olefumi. Genady. Albani. Fifty thousand people. Before them, the Vasudan deception, Elder Taudigani, the Luna domes, the Jovian convoys. Back when all this started, I kept protesting that the Tevs who perpetrated these crimes were just people like us. 

Naivete at its finest.

Svetlana Henriksson was a traitorous monster. The Tevs she served are amoral, limp, compliant puppets worthy of only hatred, contempt, and the barrel of a gun. They invaded a peaceful star system and killed or drove mad countless people, including my dearest friends, my mother, and, I think, the woman I loved, in the name of some cold social projection and their own gibbering fear of the Shivans.

I pulled the trigger to kill Svetlana Henriksson without a sliver of remorse. I would do the same for any Tev.

If the worlds of the Alliance were ants beneath my feet I would -

Hey, Vidaura. No, just a log entry. I've been keeping this thing since Jupiter fell. Yeah, I'll be with you in a second. You're damn right I was on an op. Let's see what you three can get out of me.